Maybe if I just sit and think really hard and imagine that my house is entirely packed up, the medical records have been picked up, the oil has been changed in the car, the utilities have been cancelled, the much needed subscription to People magazine has been forwarded, the suitcases have been packed for the road trip, the insurance agents have been called, and the house has been cleaned for the renters, then it will really happen. Because heaven knows I am certainly not doing any of those things. Why would I when there's a pint of Ben and Jerry's in the freezer and a re-run of "The Office" on? I mean, really. Would you?
Christmas is over. The tree is down. The halls have been undecked and now we are packing up to head to KC. We leave on Saturday, but I am not ready to think about that yet. My head is still floating in cranberries, candy canes, and Bing Crosby.
Bennett had a wonderful first Christmas at her cousins house. Santa thought she was a very good girl this year, but really, she just liked the paper. In fact, Santa could have brought her a roll of wrapping paper and she would have been in heaven. The fun fact about this weekend is that she walked!!! If you hold on to her hands, she can easily walk from the couch to the table or from one side of her crib to the other. She isn't just kicking in place, but taking steps. And she can walk the length of her pack and play and the back again holding on to the sides. Very exciting!
Here are a few shots from our week. And oh yeah, ROB'S HOME! That was the best present of all.
The night before we headed to my sister's house, we took Bennett to the zoo to see the lights with my parents. It was rather cold that night so we had to bust out her KC outerwear a little early. My sister reading "Twas the Night Before Christmas" to all the girls. What are we going to do if this new baby is a boy? He's going to hate family get togethers. Bennett checking out the loot from Santa. Getting a Christmas morning kiss. Kisses and cheerios. There's not much better than that. Merry Christmas everyone! Christmas is extra special because Daddy's home.
Rob comes home today! We made it. And as I write this I know many people have husbands or wives who travel all the time or who are deployed for a whole lot longer than this, so I know how lucky we are. But since Rob and I have been married, we have never been apart for more than two days, so it will be very nice to have him home. Bennett needs so much attention right now and the new little one kicks my tail every morning when I am over the sink and every afternoon when I can't hold my head up straight. Thank goodness for my Mom. I could not have done this without her. She has been so kind to let me nap when she could, and watch Bennett so I could participate in our Christmas production at church. Thank you so much, Mom. But I think it has been hard for other reasons. I think this has been a time when I needed my husband more than ever. Moving is stressful. Moving across the country is very stressful. Leaving my home and saying good-bye to all of my friends has been so hard. I had lunch and dinner last night with dear friends and it is so hard knowing I may only see them once a year. I am on my way out now to have brunch at the house of a lady who has been like a mentor to me. I don't want to say good-bye to her and her family. I was so sad my last day at work on Sunday. I love my job and have been there for 6 years. So, the combination of everything has not made for the best holiday season, but I still know that the Lord's hand is in all of this.
Plus, did I mention that Rob is coming home in FIVE HOURS!!!!????
So I open my door the other day and there is a box on my doorstep. It is from my sweet friend Courtney. Court and I were close friends in college. She was an angel then and apparently she is still an angel today. She had been reading my blog and noticed that I was feeling blue with Rob gone for a month and so she sent me a care package. I was so surprised when I opened her box and found the sweetest note about how she had been thinking about me and wanted to cheer me up. So she filled the box with this. She had notes written on everything and I spent the longest time reading her notes and thanking the Lord for sending encouragement my way when I needed it the most. She sent goodies for Bennett, a photo album so I could fill it with pictures of Rob, and sleeper for B that says, "Daddy's girl," a pedicure set for me, and even little baby booties for the new baby. Her note on that one said, "These are for the days when baby bean is kicking butt and taking names. A quick look at these will make it all seem ok."
Have I mentioned that I love her!!? And she has an extremely busy job, a toddler, and a baby. I was just blown away and I wanted to thank her publicly for being so thoughtful and encouraging to me. It is a good reminder to me that I need to be aware of what others in my life are going through. Knowing that she just read my blog and took the time to do that astounds me. There are those in my life that I talk to constantly that could use some encouraging as well, but I rarely take the time to really find out how they are. Or to take it a step further and write them a note. Or send a pick me up in the mail. Thanks, Courtney for reminding me what it is to be the hands and feet of Christ. I want to be just like you when I grow up.
Ah, yes. Our first photo with Santa. Questions were running rampant in my mind. Would he terrify her? Would she scream and call out, "Mamamama?" Would we wait 5 hours in line? Would it cost $140? However, none of my fears were met as Bennett loved Santa, there was virtually no line, and it only cost about what you would expect an overpriced photo to cost. Of course I don't have the official photo posted on here. You had to pay for that one and my stupid scanner is broken. Again. So, here are a few Daddy took from the sidelines. Mommy was on the floor looking like an idiot trying to make Bennett smile, but in turn making Santa realize that Mommy really needs a gift certificate to a spa this year.
What's up big guy? You are and I are going to be great friends. I'd like some teeth and some hair. Thanks. I really wish that she weren't so comfortable with strangers.
Bennett had her nine month check up today. So what if she will be ten months next week? We do what we can, right? So the good news is that her length is 28 3/4. That puts her in the 80% for length. The surprising news is that her weight is 16lbs 9oz. That puts her in the 8% for weight!!! Good thing I took her three weeks late for her nine month. If I had taken her three weeks ago she might not have been on the charts. But the doctors assured me that she was fine and he blood cell count was good and indicative that she was growing. Her head circumference is also in the eighth percentile. But, that's all brain, so I'm cool with that.
I met some of the kids of my TV show, "Chain Reaction 222" for dinner last night. We met at Stevie B's pizza of course. That's where we went every month to wrap up an episode and celebrate that we had another one in the can. I cannot say enough about how much I am going to miss these kids and the show itself. I got hooked on children's theatre when I spent a summer in Pennsylvania performing at a theatre near Philadelphia. We had to do a children's show every Saturday morning and from then on I was hooked. I travelled with the Missoula Children's Theatre for a year and a half all over the US and Europe and I have taught acting lessons to kids here in Montgomery for 5 years at a local performing arts center.
But I must say that this TV show has been one of the best experiences of my life. It combined every one of my passions which included children, drama, editing, writing, and directing into one production. I loved seeing kids excited about drama. I loved teaching kids who wanted to use their talents to tell other kids about the Lord. I loved kids at home thinking it was cool to be a Christian or cool to be in the arts. I loved everything about it and to say that I will miss the show and these kids is a huge understatement.
Here are just a few of the way too many pictures I took last night. I will continue to pray for each of these kids and I am so excited to stay in touch with them and see what the future has in store.
Rob is here for a whirlwind 43 hour visit. And of those 43 hours I have to be at the church for about 12 of them. Oh, well. I would be thrilled to have him here even if it were for only 5 minutes. Someone else got to get up last night to give Bennett a lost paci and someone else held her and played with her while I took a long shower!! She has been rubbing his beard all morning and saying, "DaDa." All order has been restored to our world. Well, at least for another day and a half. We are off in a few minutes for Bennett's first picture with Santa and for a day of just being together before he has to leave again. But we sure are glad he's home for now.
What do you do in Montgomery on a Sunday night when you are bored? Go to a movie? No. Sneak in some early Christmas shopping? No. Grab coffee and discuss existentialism vs marxism? No, you go rolling. And to make it even better, you use your 9 month old as an accomplice. Here are some photos from our "big" night out (or pathetic, depending on your point of view.) And no, Rob did not come back just to give our daughter a rap sheet before her first birthday. The mischief was done the weekend before he left.
Getting ready to roll Anthony's car was our number one target Busted Number 9 on Montgomery's most wanted list Next up was the Segars house. They got egged. We laughed and drove away. They didn't even notice. We had to call them and tell them. We're old.
Can a 9 month old really be aware that her Daddy hasn't been home for 5 days? I am not sure, but I think Bennett is catching on to that. Rob left on Saturday and for the first few days everything was completely normal. But then, yesterday, I think it hit us all. Even the unborn one. Maybe it was all of the Christmas shows on TV that made me sentimental, maybe it was the fact that Bennett refused to nap all day, maybe it was because I was bent over a trash can for a good part of the day, but yesterday was rough.
We hooked up our webcam again last night to see Rob. The first time Bennett squealed and stared at the computer in awe. When she saw him last night, she burst into tears. I think I did too. And in her nine months of life she has never slept in our bed. She has been in a bassinet in our room, but never in our bed. Since Rob has been gone, she has slept there twice. I think she misses her goodnight songs with the guitar or the funny muppet song Daddy sings to her at night. I am not sure, but when I put her to bed in her crib, she has pulled up on the sides and called out for me. She then yells, "Mamamama" until I pick her up and carry her to bed with me. Then she relaxes, sighs, and holds my finger. I think she needs me more than ever. And I think her Mom feels the same way about her.
Rob left for Kansas City on Saturday evening. I am almost relieved in a way. Not that he's gone, but that the move is finally starting to happen. We have known about this since September and it has been almost like taking a band aid off very slowly. It has been painful and hard, and emotionally, I am just ready to go.
It was hard being at church yesterday without him. I missed him terribly. I would walk through the atrium and he wouldn't be up on the plasma screens, or I would walk in the green room expecting him to be there laughing with someone on the couch... it was hard. But it was a wonderful morning and I couldn't have been prouder of Jerrod and the praise band. They sounded amazing and I am so excited for Rob to hear them when he comes back to get me in a few weeks.
Our house hasn't sold yet. We have come close twice. One person had us in their top five and another in their top two, but they decided to go with a brand new house. It's draining. Being pregnant and having a newborn, I definitely feel the nesting instinct. I wish more than anything that we could move to KC and move into a home. I am thankful that the Lord provided a rental house that we could afford, but it will be hard living there indefinitely. I am a very organized person so the thought of a cramped house full of boxes with no end date set is hard. I would love to be able to get two nurseries ready and to baby proof the house with safety gates and locks. But at the same time, I have been to other countries and parts of Montgomery where people live in horrific conditions, so I feel ungrateful for saying that because I know how much the Lord has blessed us with.
Keep praying for us. Bennett is crawling everywhere. She will be in another room in 20 seconds if you aren't watching her. I am extremely sick with this new baby as well. I have felt a lot more tired and nauseous than I did with Bennett. Money is tight with a mortgage, rent, moving expenses, and now two kids. And also, I will be leaving my job, my home, all of my friends and my family in just a few weeks. But other than that, we don't have much going on. :-) I heard a quote recently that I love. It says, "I know it says that God won't give me more than I can handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much."
We spent the day with my brother-in-law's family in Clanton. We have been doing this for over ten years now and it is a very special tradition. Little B was a trooper. We got there a little late to make sure she got a good morning nap b/c I knew it would be hard to let her nap there. And it was, but she was perfect. She even munched on pine straw on the hayride like a good little farmer. We have so much to be thankful for this year. I can't believe that last Thanksgiving I was 6 months pregnant and had no idea what Bennett would look like or how she would be. What a difference a year makes and I am so thankful for her and for all the joy she has brought to our lives. Next Thanksgiving I will also have a 4 month old and I am ready to see this little life and I thank God already for this incredible blessing.
My family as the sun was setting on the hayride. Bennett with her cousins. Bennett and Daddy enjoying a hayride. Bennett and Mommy doing the same thing. She looks so big in this picture. I cannot believe how much older she looks. The four grandaughters enjoying their first Thanksgiving all together.
Last Thursday night we had a farewell concert for Rob. We showed a lot of classic videos and had an amazing night of worship. It is pointless for me to attempt to write down how much the night meant to us. It was the culmination of 8 years of ministry and it could not have been a more meaningful night for us. Someone might have wondered why we had such a big fuss for someone who took a new job. After all, people leave church staffs all the time. But it was more than that and it's hard to explain why everyone wanted to have the concert to say good-bye.
When John Schmidt started the Contemporary Worship Service, he did so in a small sanctuary with a handful of volunteers and a congregation of about 50. When Rob came on board the two of them grew a service into what it is today with years of hard work, prayer, laughs, and focus. The main reason for starting this service was to present the gospel in a fresh and innovative way to those who wouldn't normally come to church.
Over the years Rob and John along with others such as myself, Cyndi Lombardi, and Shane Segars have had quite a ride seeing the service grow into what it is today-with a typical Sunday attendance of about 2000. We have had many joys and many tears as we have seen people come to know Christ. So, Thursday night wasn't just a send off for two staff people, but rather a celebration of how far we have come from those days in the East Sanctuary and a celebration of all the Lord has done through us as we strive to do His will.
I know a lot of people are excited about the changes that are coming to our worship service. I fully recognize that it's time to see what God has in store next as He takes the service in a new direction. I pray that the service continues to fulfill its original purpose of reaching Non-Christians while taking those who are already in a relationship with the Lord to a deeper and more personal level.
I for one, count it as a privilege to have worked alongside Rob and John for so many years. The team we put in place have not only been my co-workers, but some of my dearest friends. I cannot tell you how many late nights we have spent working on videos, brainstorming sermon series, practicing skits, going over sermon points, working on music, and painting sets. I don't think it has really hit me yet that we are leaving. That service will always have a piece of my heart and if I had any small part in anyone coming to know Christ either for the first time or though a re-dedication, or even just a deeper walk with Him, then there is nothing more I can ask.
Here are a few pictures from Thursday night. I hope everyone there knows how much we appreciate them coming and how much we will miss our Frazer family.
A Shot of the stage from the back of the house I don't know what we are going to do without Shane. I don't think anybody could ask for a truer friend. Rob leading worship for one of the last times Being in ministry with Shane and John has truly been an honor Saying good-bye Bennett wanted to come onstage to thank everyone for being so good to her parents
7 month old- baby lays contentedly on floor while you dress her 8 month old- dressing baby is like wrestling an alligator
7 month old- baby lays in crib and calls out for you when she wakes up 8 month old- baby tries to scale the crib and yells as you find her on the other side of the crib about halfway up and inches from making a jail break
7 month old- cuddles with you while you read books 8 month old- nose dives out of your lap while trying to eat the book
7 month old- waits patiently in high chair for you to clean her face after eating 8 month old- knows exactly what Mom is doing and does NOT want that cold paper towel on her face, and so screams so you won't come near her with that cleaning apparatus
7 month old- loves to giggle at dogs 8 month old- loves to pull dogs ears and yell at them
7 month old- plays happily with toys by herself 8 month old- climbs over toys to find the most dangerous object in house
7 month old- tricks Mom and Dad into thinking parenting is really easy 8 month old- makes Mom and Dad think they should have waited a little longer before having a second.
...besides me read a chapter of "What to Expect the First Year" and "What to Expect when You're Expecting" last night?
Oh, yeah, and in the craziness of the whole baby/move thing, I forgot to mention that little B is crawling! Everywhere. And she likes the sharp edges of furniture that I can't cover up because we are showing our house. But don't worry. I watch her like a hawk. Except when I'm blogging. So I should probably go now.
Surprised? Me too. Shocked? Right there with you. Thrilled for us? So am I. Let's just say that I didn't quite think I had enough change going on in my life and I decided to throw in some more, just for good measure.
We have another little one on the way and are expecting an early July arrival. The siblings will be 16 months apart. And I will need a lot of medication. We have known for several weeks, but it is still kind of scary to announce this to the world. However, after seeing the little heartbeat today we feel better about sharing the news. It took us over a year to have Bennett with several bumps along the way, so this next one was "planned," but with the thought it would take as long as it did to have Bennett. Nope. It didn't.
So, here I go again. For those of you that don't know I had a very complicated pregnancy with Bennett. So I am currently on three progesterone pills a day, 2 shots of blood thinners every day, two pre-natal vitamins, one dose of baby aspirin, and a partridge in a pear tree.
I realized that I hadn't really posted anything about our move since our big announcement. I think I am still in denial. I look at all of the cardboard boxes in my house and think, "Hmmm... why are these strange things cluttering up my dining room?" and then it hits me- oh yeah. I am moving halfway across the country in a few weeks. I think I trick myself into forgetting so I won't be a big ball of mush 24/7. Who else besides me walks around their house and cries when they see the hardware on their kitchen cabinets? I will be in the best mood and then I will see something like that and I will burst into tears remembering how excited Rob and I were picking those out when we built our house. Truly pathetic.
Rob is leaving in 2 weeks. We planned his going away concert today and it was so incredibly sentimental. We were in John's office and we were trying to narrow down which videos to show. Every one of them made us reminisce for 10 minutes. I can't begin to write how much we are going to miss John and the Contemporary Service. For those of you reading this that don't know, the going away concert will be a week from tonight at 6:00pm in Wesley Hall. I really hope you can make it. It is going to be a wonderful night.
But anyway, we are just in the final stages. Finishing up wedding videos, packing the house, trying to grab those last dinners out with close friends, tying up loose ends at the church, praying non-stop for our house to sell, and trying to get Bennett well from the RSV virus.
Speaking of which, she is crying right now with her little chest rattling so I think my little girl needs me to get off the computer and hold her. Keep us in your prayers and we'll keep you posted as we wind things down here in Montgomery.
WE'RE NUMBER ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For now. And I couldn't be more excited. I was at the game that pushed us to number 1. Well, Texas Tech beating Texas is really what did it, but I was at the 'Bama game on Saturday and we still thrashed Ark. State 35-0. It was truly glorious. Gotta run now. I am beginning my preparations for LSU on Saturday which amount to wringing my hands nervously, avoiding all commentators, and buying Golden Flake potato chips because I am told they are good luck.
John Parker- can you please not make the sidelines your favorite receivers next week? Thanks. Me with Lenore and Samuel. Grabbin' lunch before the game Touchdown. Again. Awesome. I don't know how a feather duster got in my shot, but it did. See you next week, Cody. We need you! Jenelle and I had amazing seats- just a few rows up from the sidelines. ROLL TIDE!
Here she is in all her glory. The cutest lion I have ever seen. And I mean that. We practiced her roar all day yesterday, but mainly she just smiled and looked very confused. Her cousin, otherwise known as an Alabama cheerleader came down to party with us. She took care of her "bestest cousin for-evah" all night long We had a few friends over last night and we trick or treated with the best of them. We also ate way too much and played wii in the backyard on a giant sheet, despite it being way too cold to do so. Here are a few of the costumes that made their way into our home.
Here we are finding the houses with the best candy. I think I see a queen, a shepherd, and who knows what else Bob the Builder thought about challenging Goliath to a battle. He soon realized that he needed to find another option. Jim, Pam, and Dwight showed up, but it really isn't a party without Michael Scott, so I'm not sure if it counts. Here are some students from Hogwarts, but again- No Dumbledore, no party. Scariest. Costume. Ever. And finally, our first Halloween as a family. Since little B was a lion, we had to go as a witch and a wardrobe. Naturally.
Getting ready with the spooky treats. We're setting up the wii in the backyard with a bed sheet and a projector. Tomorrow night shall be a battle to the death with some life sized wii action. Here is Rob practicing with a ninja.
A family of red heads. Of course. And quite a fun one at that. Oh, and our last name is Webster. Hence the name, "The Red Webs." You may now proceed with your blog surfing.
A theatre loving, football watching, book reading Mom of 3 who loves the Lord, her husband and her golden lab. In that order. Oh, and she thinks her kids are pretty great too. Five seconds of reading this blog should tell you that.
A guitar strumming, video editing, picture taking creative dude. He loves Jesus, coffee, his kids and he thinks his wife is prety cool too. He dislikes exclamation points, comic sans font and the letter K.
"For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. If you need wisdom-if you want to know what God wants you to do-ask him, and he will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking."