Well, this stinks. I don't know how else to phrase it. I'm home, but I am in so much pain. Last night was awful. I fell out of the bed on the floor and couldn't move. I didn't realize how much having a hard hospital bed with rails helped me. I hurt so much every time I tried to move in my bed with the soft mattress. Today has been rough. My Mom, sister, and nieces are here an I have been looking forward to their visit more than I can say. I had meals planned and so many fun activities- now they are all at a children's farmstead and I am on the couch. My mom stayed with me, but I am so sad that I wasn't able to join them. Also, I can't be on heavy pain meds because I am nursing Will, so all I am taking is Ibuprofen. They gave me heavy medication at the hospital which is why I was doing better. I think I am hurting so much worse today because I am not on any medication.
I don't mean for this blog to be a rant or a vent for me. All I can say is thank you for your prayers and I humbly ask you to continue them. I can't lift Bennett. I can't rock her or put her to bed. I can't feed her. Someone has to hand me Will and only then can I hold him. I can't dress myself. I would give anything right now to be out with my family who I haven't seen in months, but I can't. And I guess just mainly pray that we find a diagnosis. We still don't know what's wrong and so therefore, there is no course of action.
But to make me feel better I am posting a sweet picture of my kids that my friend Mary (who has been a saint!!) took on her iphone while she was watching them for us.
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